I'm alive.

and just got back from a really nice comfortable chill night with my prospective boo...

now i have to enjoy every 3 hours of sleep i get b/c i have to work at 8 in the morninggg

real update coming soon....promise.

ohhhhhh and i've been eating checkers alll week
for the lone fact that they have coupons...
99cent hotdog combo??
1.99 spicy chicken sandwich combo?????

say no more

i'll deal with the acne and high blood pressure later

ok the main reason i havent been updating is bc i've been incredibly busy the past week
and busy is good ...i like busy
busy is a true blessing
bc it means im being productive
bt another reason i havent been writing
is bc of my struggle with not spending money
i try not to write bc i know at the end of the day
all this post is going to be ab is my money woes
and how i cant shop
and how i need to pay this bill and that bill and woe is mee
and who feels like reading thatt
bt u kno what....
if i cant put it in my journal im going to talk ab it everyday in person and
thats even worstttttt

anyway some of u might have similar problemss
this could be somebody's inspiration lolol
so if u dnt want to read ab
how im spending my whole paycheck next week paying off half of 2 cards...
then kindly and i mean this with all due respect....be gone..

if u care lol :

so my journey of not spending any money and paying off everything i owe is still going onn
and its been INCREDIBLY HARD...
i actually paid my sallie mae bill on timee
this next paycheck is going completely to my chase card and that is theee hardest pill to swallow ...fa'real
especially since my last paycheck went completely to bills...but i have truly decided today that i am going to manage my money and stick to my budgets and goals
even though it just hurtsss rite nowww

I had an unexpected check a cpl weeks ago and just been lettin it sit in my glove compartment till i decide what wise way i could use it...
and then i got 2 tickets in the mail...
and that reminded me about the other 2 tickets i need to pay
ugh so im gonna use some of the money to pay the little tickets first...
then see how my money looks next week to pay a bigger ticket
and then try to pay another ticket i had with another check i guess
i hateeee paying tickets
most of the time i just drive with warrants until i get shook enough to pay them
bt i don't have time for that now wen i pay these cards off i plann on doing a shopping spree
and thats just not gonna work if i'm wantedd lol

but anyway i kno once i cash that check its pretty much gonna be gone
bt im gonna replace it right away...its been feelin good knowing that even though
i have 'just enough' money to get to work and bak
i have rainy day moneyyy sittin in the bank just in case i need ittt
def gonna try and keep at least 200 in one of my savings accts from now onn

JUST DONT GET INTO CREDIT CARD DEBT PEOPLE...

i'm gettin my nails done tommorow and i dnt even wanna think ab spendin money on thatttt

updates coming soon!

been veddi veddi busyy

my mini road-trip this weekend was good..ended up staying in Newark

which i pretty much swore off wen i left Berkeley

ganja and smog filled air...

the worst

ahhh good to be back in the country....

didn't go to rutgers until saturday for carribean day

b/c i stayed at my cousins babysitting late 

Tony Matterhorn?? AKA DUTTY WINE  guy performed there...

and a bunch of other Jamaicans and Trinis and Haitians that I could barely understand the name....or what they were saying bt it was good seeing my old friends from elementary school 

and I am proud of myself bc I excercised EXTREME will power in north jersey 

I'm a little scared to admit this 

but the Joyce Leslie in East Brunswick is POPPIN lolol 

I don't think people realize the severity of my impulse spending 

bt I literally had to sit down and basically pray for help not spending my money

on the cutest little dress I found there and it wasn't

 just the dress it was the fact that 

I couldnt get the dress and 

not get the hat 

and i couldnt get the hatt 

and not get the sunglasses

and i couldnt decide which sunglasses were cuter 

so i would of course have to get BOTH

{now you see what i mean??}

The Lordt knows his daughter though...He came through for me...

I couldnt leave empty handed lol but I didnt spend more than 20 dollars..HOLLA.

THE PARTY THAT NITE WAS WHACKKKKK

bt I am also proud of myself bc 

I got my arm yankeddddd

not pulled softly

not even tugged

YANKED 

by some lil short hype brotha

that wanted me to dance with him....

and i did not CUSS

i'm still just really thinkin 

did he do that???

WHO does that?!?!

bt that right there...

validated WHY i don't even bother with parties anymore

too many disrespectful niggas

who can't just have a good time without actin 

out....

..and on top of that the dj was whackk 

i mean he played the Cha Cha Slide...

and that should only be reserved for barbeques, family reunions, and weddings

aww crud, i can't lie...i did get up and do it for like 30 seconds hahaha

and despite my hate for Northern New Jersey 

I still love Downtown Newark...

I mean they had me at the full set AND pedi for $25

where else u gon get that 

LOL

i randomly got this done just bc it was only $10 

i kno it kinda makes my ear look a lot bigger

and i kno im late lol 

everybody had these in sixth grade nd stuhh

and im pretty sure my second and third holes are closed bc i havent worn earrings in them in like 2 years

bt ohhh well

 now i'm home..went to work and came back home bc sore throat ears poppin and telemarketing just dont mix...ima try and go back tonite though...i HAVE to put in WORK this week ...I NEED 80 HOURS ON MY PAYCHECK STAT!

LOL

and on another note

trying to do lashes today

no particular reason 

jus thought that knowledge would be good to add to my profile