Soo these are the weather conditions in SNJ right now..

I actually tried to drive to work 7 o' clock this morning when it was first starting...God basically picked my car up turned it around and made me go back home ....like Alicia, what's wrong with you??

If I would have made it to Philly ...I woulda been stuck there for sure

because the snow was probably knee high by 12 in the afternoon

Anyway I ended up leaving my car at wawa until this storm dies down...

I could've been updating my journal allll dayy

[which was much needed]

but I opted to be lazy...

I did absolutely nothing...

hung out with my nieces

took the LONGEST nap with one of them

[and didn't even put on a silk bonnet..which i NEVER forget]

I tried a couple different makeup looks

refrained from fb stalking...

and now I'm updating my journal before I take a shower, clean my room and bathroom and go to sleeeppp!!

** NEXT FEW PARAGRAPHS ARE STRICKLY YAKI TALK**

I'm still into the beauty thing a lot but now I've been ITCHING to do a sew in weave...[this time on my own]

I MUSTTTTTT figure out what I'm going to do about this color

I got my hair colored a couple of weeks ago...This red/blonde/orange color [which dried my hair out soo bad btw, my hair is in a shea butter bath right now] that is impossible to weave match!!!

I would get virgin indian and color it...but it's not that deep...I'm getting the virgin hair for my summer jet black, down my back weave...

ughhhhh as I type this I'm feeling the shame

How did I get sucked up into the phony hair world...

I want my real hair to grow down my back..that's the main purpose of this butt

I reallyy really wanna feel that REMY VELVET on my arm again...

like i love the fact that i can feel my hair on my arm....

SICKENING, I KNOW..

but anyway what I"m probably going to do is get some # 350 in reg human hair for the top[b.c they don't make remy in that color, RETARDED]

just a little just enough to blend the very little bit of real hair i'm going to have out in....

then I'll get a number 33 and a number 4 in the remy

I want long with a side part

not leaving any edges out and no back its going to all be braided up b/c my edges broke off A LOT with my last weave so they needta chill out...

and I was thinking about having my sister braid me....but i MIGHT just go to the africans so i can get micro mini no joke tight braids..

we'll see...but this all needsta happen before NYE..

I want it fresh for 0hten

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I really needta start pushing this school thing...

This week I"m going HARD...

I'm going to GET the tax returns from my Dad and do my stinkin financial aid

Then I'm gonna start paying for my kit and talking this guy in to signing this loan...

I can't let another season go by where I'm not in school it's getting redic!

So really I'm setting this goal to get this THING done THIS WEEK!

I always do things after i make it a realll do or die GOAL!

Another goal will be to be a GOOD steward over God has given me forreal,

no more ridiculous credit cards for no reason...Vicky's I can see but Express, forreal? I don't even LIKE that store

NO MORE banging and dirtying poor Tammy up...

I'm going to take care of EVERYTHING

including my friends and family...

so no more ignoring texts, calls, and messages [unless necessary]

ugh I just semi-lost hope when I realized my Sallie Mae payment is coming out this week and I haven't deposited my check yettt

GAHHHH

HALLELUJAH, ANYHOW

WHY CAN'T I BE SINGLE??

SERIOUSLY, I get sooooo sick of people asking me why I'm not dating....

Is it that weird that I CHOOSE to

a.)WAIT ON GOD FOR MY MATE... and

b.) NOT be bothered with "fill-in-nigga" bs in the meantime??

I mean I think people really don't believe that it's possible for a girl to be content with herself without a man ....

I definitely don't want to be single forever but honestly when I look at my pool of options....I literally get PISSED!....my only major requirement is that you are a LEADER who is able to hold an INTELLIGENT conversation with me.. with that being said, about 98 % of my options have disappeared.....

then throw in the fact that I want him to be God-fearing, Goal-Oriented, and BLACK with an attraction to black females and my options are just like age 40 and up and I don't do old men...

The point of this post is to say that I'm single, I'm not a lesbian (u would be surprised how close minded people are..or would you?),I'm not bitter and I don't hate men ( i do believe theres hope somewhere out there) I don't plan on being single forever BUT I'm not wasting my time on any immature, throwed off BOY ...i'M WAITING...it's not easy to wait on God...it's not easy to be single....BUTTT.....the state of the black male population makes it a WHOLE LOT EASIER

WOW, I can't believe I have all of 8 followers of this blog right now...
I wish i could get into it like I really want to but I don't have the energy for pics and such and such
big ups to every fashion blog i stalk bc they are LOADED with pics!

So for Black Friday I didn't go out at the crack of dawn and go shopping..although I would have if I had the money
Instead around noon I took another visit to my favorite thrift store with my mom
I had 20 dollars to spend and CLEANED UP if I must say so myself =)

I got 2 blazers...
+one gray and dark gray striped wool
++the other like an oversize plaid one
I got a huge oversized rabbit fur coat omgoodnesss i loveeee
I have to get it cleaned though
Micheal jackson tee
Striped cropped tee
and a navy sweater with an anchor on the front

i'll try and take some pics and post some

I also ordered some make-up from ebay....
you know what I think when my makeup gets here
I'll do a haul post...and post pics of my purchases from my thrift store as well
ok forreal this time ima be on it

So...I'm still addicted to youtube videos...
I actually have the urge to look at them right now....
but I'm controlling it. lol
It's like once you look at one you want to find out how to do everything

I ordered my NYX shadows that I'm going to use as blush
They're in transit here as I type =D
ORDERED 2 LIPGLOSSES, A LIPSTICK AND A HIGHLIGHTER AS WELL ..

Right now, this makeup thing is almost overshadowing hair...and that's NOT GOOD..

and btw, I wasn't trying to throw shade at all you naturals last post...
just really like a completed look....not quite sure I would even THINK about makeup if I didn't NEED it.....nawww that's a lie im sorryyy

random as usual

ok so, i'm patiently waiting to find out whether or not i'm going to be starting school next week...

i only have to ask my dad whether or not he's going to co-sign my loan

and i have to get a 795 dollar check from him for my kit...

not too bad...

PRAYY!!!

i kind of feel like i'm on standstill until then

like i feel like i'm calling myself a hair stylist but

with no creds..

and I'm trying to shake that feeling because even though it's technically true, it's discouraging

the Bible says to call those things that are NOT as though they ARE...

bt this waiting to find out thing is NERVE WRACKING

bc I know in this business SCHOOL is NECESSARY

for me to progress in my job SCHOOL is NECESSARY

so the longer I wait to go to school....the longer i will be washing hair and making

$300 a week ...

I WANNA START TAKING CLIENNTS

I WANNA KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO DO HAIR IN A SHOP LOL

(and get paid for itt )

idk all i can do is pray

I know for a FACT that God is working things out INSIDE of me that need to be takin care of before I take on more responsibilities like school...so if He feels this isn't the right time I'm not trippin I'm waiting until February ....and i'm getting a second job and STACKING...AND i'm taking at least 2 classes on SOMETHING... so i can feel some PROGRESSION

anyway this vid encouraged me from youtube doubt neone will click it but if u need a pick me up or just some encouragement check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fbl_ePyIiJY

speaking of youtube...I've been OBSESSED with makeup tutorials lately...

now, the passion of my life is HAIR...

but I LOVE and appreciate ANYTHING beauty...

colouredbeauty has me ready to buy some orange blush

and definitely thinking about putting my black opal stick foundation back to use

little things like that make me excited for daysss

I like to take full advantage of all of the perks of being a woman..

and yeah, it's kind of superficial in a way butt...

I HATEEEEEE when girls women get dressed up to go out with no face on !!!

I mean shoutout to naturally beautiful girls

but if you got the shoesss and the dress..

why not accessorize it with some blush??

if ur gonna do it, DO IT

and

a lil moisturizer, lil bronzer, lil eye liner, lil maskeeras go a mighttyy longggg wayyy

(excuse me while i dream)

I want to be the well rounded stylist that you can come to the day you're going out and get THE WORKS done....

So I'm trying to make my makeup skills coincide with my hair skills...

Why would you give somebody a GREAT hair style only for them to go out with lotion and chapstick on there face ughhh idk that's a major pet peeve of mine

I want my clients to leave feeling like a NEW person...

I did my mom's makeup today..and she clearly felt sooo goood omgoodness i would LOVE for every client to walk out of my chair the way she did today...

(ok that's over)

ok had a few other paragraphs to write but decided to stop myself for the sake of neone who reads this and doesnt want to see random ramblings....

g'nite

pics next time prom

especially when i get my orange blush =D

SALE!!!!SALE!!!!SALE!!SALE!!!SALE!!!SALE!!!

I HAVE SOME BRAND NEW NEVER WORN ACCESSORIES FROM MY AUNT'S ACCESSORY BOUTIQUE TO SELL...PLENTY OF OTHER BEAUTIFUL AND DIFFERENT JEWELRY, SCARVES, BAGS AND HATS TO COME IF THESE DO WELL!!

PASHMINA (CASHMERE WOOL) SCARVES (BLUE SCARF HAS BEADED DETAIL)

$20 EA. + S&H

I WILL POST PICS OF ME IN MINEE SO YOU CAN SEE HOW THEY DRAPE!

(EXCUSE MY BONNET LOL)

BRAND NEW LARGE GOLD CLIP ONS

$18 + S&H

IF YOU LOVE HUGE CLIP ON EARRINGS LIKE ME BRAND NEW $10 + S&H

BEST FOR LAST...

I LOVE THIS CLUTCH AND THESE PICS REALLY DON'T DO IT JUSTICE...LET ME KNOW IF YOU'D LIKE TO SEE MORE...BRAND NEW FAUX SNAKE SKIN AND PATENT LEATHER CLUTCH WITH ZIPPER DETAIL LOVEEEEEE THISS PLUS IT COMES WITH SHOULDER STRAP IF U WANT TO SWITCH IT UP (I'D STICK WITH IT AS A LARGE CLUTCH THOUGH ;])

$48 + S&H

so as usual its been a while since I've posted...I have GOT to do better..

I'm at the point where I'm literally getting sick of myself and my bad habits...

spending, speeding, lack of patience, lack of commitment...

I'm ready to GROWWW

so I'm going to REALLY REALLY try to commit myself to blogging AT LEAST once a week...

pics included..

it actually helps me not to go on and on to people who could care less...just because I have things bottled up lol

and its a start to changing

So the pics above are from last Sunday's photoshoot at my house...

shoutout to Gifted to Style U Fashion Mgt (Shannan J.)!!...aspiring stylist..she styled the shoot...pics are going to be used to build her port...pretty sure she has a blog comin out soon as well...will keep u posted...(GREAT FASHION EYE)

and 20/20 VMP who shot and taped the shoot check out their website

consider them family was muchhhh funnn got to use a lot of vintage pieces i hadn't worn yet...(ie metallic gold jacket second pic LOVEEEEEE)

CLICK FOR BEHIND THE SCENES FOOTAGE OF SHOOT AND ME IN ACTION LOL

speaking of vintage I am still very much addicted but I think I have enough things now to last me over the month of NOVEMBER have GOT to start using self control...

in other news i took out my weave the pics above are with it STILL in after 4 mths

I gotta say.. I will NEVER keep a weave in that long again

taking it out hurt worst than getting it braided and sewn in

I have NEVER SEEN my roots so nappy

and the amt of hair that came out of my hair CANT be healthy

my scalp is still paying the price for that comb out....

i believe i'm tenderheaded now

anyway i took myself to the dominicans.. I had been going to the dominicans for 2 years FAITHFULLY before I really started doing my own hair.. and I actually missed it...I do hair..and i get my hair done for free but i just HAD to go there for some reason... I used to go to a shop called Nuevo Estilo in North Philly..and a few of the women from that shop opened up a new shop around the corner from my job in West Philly....(all the way God lol)

anyway I got a wet set and as I sat for 2 hours (ha-lawd!) under the dryer i watched their technique and wrote like 3 pages of notes on my phone for my OWN salon.....I HAVE HUGEEEEE PLANSSS...MADD EPIPHANIES AND STUHH'

anyway the final result of my wetset was tight GRANDMOM hard as rock curls lol

but thats what i prepared myself for...i brushed the sides up into a mohawk (which hurttt) and I'm going to try to rock it out like this for 2 weeks ...or until my scalp heals =(..then its straight city!!! probably some color as well...

attn: IM GOING TO START SELLING ON THIS BLOG SOOO GET UR PAYPAL ACCTS READYYY!!!