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i think i'm going to make a tumblr
so i can update from my phone
yeahhhh...that's what I'll do

POETRY

At what age is it appropriate for us to grow up?

no, seriously.

I'm slowly but surely being less and less attracted to DRAMA

i'm actually starting to be repelled and or repulsed by it

i mean, don't get yourself worked up

you probably thrive on it

and I'm a Bad Girls Club watcher /celebrity gossip column stalker like the next person

but seriously.

A friend of mine pointed out to me that the integrity of this country is at an all time low..

I wholeheartedly agree with that statement

I mean what do we really stand for as a generation?!

we have little to no MORALITY left

and the things that we are willing to fight, bicker, argue over, stand up for

i mean seriously?

i understand what its like to be immature

to have a backward mindset

to be confused to

be morally depleted

but

when is the appropriate age to consider GROWING UP?

really?

but that's a serious question..

could i go so far to say that our mentallity these days

are chains of bondage to our future?

forreal.

and you are talking to someone who is thoroughly entertained by foolery just like the next person

i'm just having epiphanies and revelation

that i am apart of a generation that lacks any type of substance

and it annoys me.

love, alicia rose

IM NOT EVEN GOING TO MAKE EXCUSES...SO

IS ANYONE ELSE A HARDCORE YOUTUBE MAKEUP GURU JUNKIE LIKE ME ??

I DNT DO EYE MAKEUP TOO OFTEN THOUGH BUT I THINK I MAY START SOONER OR LATER..

ANYWAY MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITEEE GURU IS XXTHEISLANDBEAUTYXX

SHE WEARS A QUICKWEAVE SYSTEM THAT SHE CREATED HERSELF

ITS AWESOME AND SHE HAS STEP BY STEP VIDS FOR YOU TO CREATE IT YOURSELF

ANYWAY CHECK OUT THIS VID

EVERYDAY MAKEUP WITH A TWIST PT 2

LOVEEE ITTT

WHILE UR ADD IT JUST CHECK OUT HER WHOLE CHANNEL

HER TECHNIQUE IS FLAWLESS

HER SKIN IS FLAWLESS

I LIVE FOR HER BROWS

first post of oh ten!

SHOUT OUT TO BLOGGER KIMBERLY MICHELLE FOR TAGGING ME IN HER RECENT POST

SURPRISED AND FLATTERED

SINCE I NEVER EVER UPDATE THIS THING...

I REALLLY REALLY WANT TO, GUYS

REALLY.

BUT I CAN'T DO ALL THE FANCY PICS AND TEXT AND ALL THAT TO MAKE IT INTERESTING TO READ...

[I'LL BE ON HERE FOR HOURS!]

ALL I CAN DO IS BLAB!

SO BARE WITH ME..

KIMBERLY, MY COMPUTER WOULDNT LET ME READ THE WHOLE POST...ASSUMING I HAVE TO WRITE SOME FACTS AB MYSELF THOUGH, SO HERE GOES:

1.I LOVE TO TYPE IN ALL CAPS...IT ELIMINATES HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT CAPITALIZATION AND IT LOOKS CUTER.

2. GOD IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE...AND WEN I SAY THAT I REALLY MEAN IT...THERE ARE SO MANY DISTRACTIONS IN THIS WORLD TO KEEP MY FOCUS OFF OF HIM BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY NOTHING, NOTHING, NO THING AT ALL MATTERS BUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM! HE IS THE LOVER OF MY SOUL..AND ITS A STRUGGLE BT FOR WHAT HE DOES FOR ME ON A DAILY BASIS...I OWE HIM MY ENTIRE LIFE...NOT JUST MY SUNDAY MORNINGS.

3.I LOVE EVERYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH BEAUTY...I LOVE TO SEE PEOPLE'S TRANSFORMATION FROM DRAB TO FAB! I LOVE THE WAY IT MAKES PEOPLE FEEL WEN THEY KNOW THEY LOOK GOOD..I'M AN ASPIRING HAIR STYLIST AND BECAUSE OF WHO IS WORKING IN ME I KNOW I'M DESTINED FOR GREATNESS.

4. WITH THAT BEING SAID...I'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO YOUTUBE MAKE UP TUTORIALS EVER SINCE I DISCOVERED THEM ....THEY HAVE TAUGHT ME SOOOOOOO MUCH! I LOVEEE THEM !

5.I ALSO LOVE FASHION...FOR A WHILE I WAS OBSESSED WITH FASHION BLOGS...THAT PHASE PASSED WHEN I DISCOVERED YOUTUBE..

6.I TRULY WISH I HAD MORE TIME FOR THIS BLOG...

I HAVE ADHD WEN IT COMES TO UPDATING ...I GET SOOOOO DISTRACTED..

7.HMM, KIND OF HARD FOR ME TO WRITE 10 INTERESTING THINGS AB MYSELF..

IM JUST NOT THAT INTERESTING.

8.I'M SINGLE BC I DONT CHOOSE TO SETTLE...NOT SETTLING IS A JOB IN ITSELF...

NOT VERY MANY OPTIONS TO CHOOSE FROM.

9.I SOMETIMES WONDER IF MY STANDARDS ARE TOO HIGH..

1. KNOW GOD

2. RESPECT ME

3.RESPECT YOURSELF

10. STAY TUNED !

Soo these are the weather conditions in SNJ right now..

I actually tried to drive to work 7 o' clock this morning when it was first starting...God basically picked my car up turned it around and made me go back home ....like Alicia, what's wrong with you??

If I would have made it to Philly ...I woulda been stuck there for sure

because the snow was probably knee high by 12 in the afternoon

Anyway I ended up leaving my car at wawa until this storm dies down...

I could've been updating my journal allll dayy

[which was much needed]

but I opted to be lazy...

I did absolutely nothing...

hung out with my nieces

took the LONGEST nap with one of them

[and didn't even put on a silk bonnet..which i NEVER forget]

I tried a couple different makeup looks

refrained from fb stalking...

and now I'm updating my journal before I take a shower, clean my room and bathroom and go to sleeeppp!!

** NEXT FEW PARAGRAPHS ARE STRICKLY YAKI TALK**

I'm still into the beauty thing a lot but now I've been ITCHING to do a sew in weave...[this time on my own]

I MUSTTTTTT figure out what I'm going to do about this color

I got my hair colored a couple of weeks ago...This red/blonde/orange color [which dried my hair out soo bad btw, my hair is in a shea butter bath right now] that is impossible to weave match!!!

I would get virgin indian and color it...but it's not that deep...I'm getting the virgin hair for my summer jet black, down my back weave...

ughhhhh as I type this I'm feeling the shame

How did I get sucked up into the phony hair world...

I want my real hair to grow down my back..that's the main purpose of this butt

I reallyy really wanna feel that REMY VELVET on my arm again...

like i love the fact that i can feel my hair on my arm....

SICKENING, I KNOW..

but anyway what I"m probably going to do is get some # 350 in reg human hair for the top[b.c they don't make remy in that color, RETARDED]

just a little just enough to blend the very little bit of real hair i'm going to have out in....

then I'll get a number 33 and a number 4 in the remy

I want long with a side part

not leaving any edges out and no back its going to all be braided up b/c my edges broke off A LOT with my last weave so they needta chill out...

and I was thinking about having my sister braid me....but i MIGHT just go to the africans so i can get micro mini no joke tight braids..

we'll see...but this all needsta happen before NYE..

I want it fresh for 0hten

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I really needta start pushing this school thing...

This week I"m going HARD...

I'm going to GET the tax returns from my Dad and do my stinkin financial aid

Then I'm gonna start paying for my kit and talking this guy in to signing this loan...

I can't let another season go by where I'm not in school it's getting redic!

So really I'm setting this goal to get this THING done THIS WEEK!

I always do things after i make it a realll do or die GOAL!

Another goal will be to be a GOOD steward over God has given me forreal,

no more ridiculous credit cards for no reason...Vicky's I can see but Express, forreal? I don't even LIKE that store

NO MORE banging and dirtying poor Tammy up...

I'm going to take care of EVERYTHING

including my friends and family...

so no more ignoring texts, calls, and messages [unless necessary]

ugh I just semi-lost hope when I realized my Sallie Mae payment is coming out this week and I haven't deposited my check yettt

GAHHHH

HALLELUJAH, ANYHOW

WHY CAN'T I BE SINGLE??

SERIOUSLY, I get sooooo sick of people asking me why I'm not dating....

Is it that weird that I CHOOSE to

a.)WAIT ON GOD FOR MY MATE... and

b.) NOT be bothered with "fill-in-nigga" bs in the meantime??

I mean I think people really don't believe that it's possible for a girl to be content with herself without a man ....

I definitely don't want to be single forever but honestly when I look at my pool of options....I literally get PISSED!....my only major requirement is that you are a LEADER who is able to hold an INTELLIGENT conversation with me.. with that being said, about 98 % of my options have disappeared.....

then throw in the fact that I want him to be God-fearing, Goal-Oriented, and BLACK with an attraction to black females and my options are just like age 40 and up and I don't do old men...

The point of this post is to say that I'm single, I'm not a lesbian (u would be surprised how close minded people are..or would you?),I'm not bitter and I don't hate men ( i do believe theres hope somewhere out there) I don't plan on being single forever BUT I'm not wasting my time on any immature, throwed off BOY ...i'M WAITING...it's not easy to wait on God...it's not easy to be single....BUTTT.....the state of the black male population makes it a WHOLE LOT EASIER